well, now that i'm officially "out" (at least here in Blogland) somehow i feel much more free. free to finally be myself and be who i want to be. unfortunately in the natural, in the real world, i'm still closeted, and (there's that word again) "stigmatized." it's like i dont fit in with those who are gay/lesbian, and those who are str8, well, y'all know how much shit i endured from Ms Homophobe. altho i'm sure that y'all who know me probably could care less about who i choose to fall in love with. the bottome line here is....LOVE, and FREEDOM OF CHOICE. PERIOD.i wrote the homophobe an 18-page letter finally saying the things i'd held back from saying for the duration of the "friendship" in essence, i told Ms Homophobe that who is she or anybody from her church to say who she can be friends with? and how the fuck is me being bisexual "influencing" her? i never asked this woman to go to any gay-oriented events or clubs, hell I DONT GO TO EM because i CHOOSE not to! i pointed out to her that she needs to take another look in her bible and find the passage, "judge not, lest ye be judged" and also find the story of the prostitute who was being stoned and persecuted until Christ said to them "let ye who is without sin cast the first stone" which, to me means, before you decide that another person is a sinner, you oughta take a look in the mirror at your own damn self.
there are far too many people in this world who are fanatics concerning religion. and i'm willing to betcha close to 99.9% of em have some dirty little secrets that they dont want known; in fact i'm also willing to bet that quite a few of these same "fanatics" are on the down-low in their own churches, but come before their congregations spewing hellfire and damnation to everybody else. um can you say HYPOCRISY?
i told her that the God that i love loves all of His Children UNCONDITIONALLY; that He shines His Light on the poor as well as the rich, the saint and the sinner, and yes, there may be some people that are beyond help but nevertheless He is there 24/7/365. now mind you, i'm NOT a Bible-thumper by any means. i believe in freedom of speech and free will, and if a person wants to call a blade of grass God, hey, i aint got no problem with them.
just dont judge me and shove your beliefs down my throat. i might just spit in your face.
BTW: i didnt send the 18 page letter, but it felt damn good to write out what i felt.
9 comments:
Squid: LOL!
Miz E-Glad you know who you are! That is NEVER wrong! Go tell them Bible Beaters to go fuck themselves.
Read my answers to the quiz, I think I may be bi-sexual I am not sure. I need to know for sure.
Peace!
marie: if you did more than just kissed a woman, and you liked it and want to do it again, well i think you qualify for the BiPride flag too! Welcome! *insert huge hug here* (((((((((((marie)))))))))
It's just important to respect yourself for who you are and respect who others are.
You do that, mize.
The only thing I wouldn't have done is bothered to write ~and~ send the letter.
Love you anyway you're packaged, MizE.
I kissed a girl once and liked it.
Joel: no worries: i didnt send it. *wink*
Dan: awww ty. you are so sweet.
J: my man! thank you!
It seems that I cannot fall in love with anybody ever. I have trust issues and I have a hard time bonding with other folks. That is really sad. It breaks my already broken heart.
Am I destined to be alone?I don't know?
Marie: girlfriend, dont claim those thoughts...i understand the trust issues, but dont give up hon. there is somebody out there who i am sure would be happy to be with you.
however; if it is meant for you to be alone, look at it like this: with all the diseases (AIDS, herpes, chlamydia, "clap")that are now becoming incurable, sometimes it can be a blessing in disguise. a lot of guys refuse to "hat up" when it comes to sex, and some have no clue about what a woman wants and needs. so just try to hang in there hon...hopefully the New Year will be better for all of us *smile*
Hugs
(((((((((((Marie)))))))))))
genelle (miz e)
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